each day that goes by seemed to be a progress...and yes, there is a slight progress and i already started to think that what happened to me a month ago is a joke and its stupid...but memories is what memories are...they stay in you, follow you wherever you go and washes you away at times causing you to wake up in the middle of it, feeling helpless and lost in the middle of this particular sea...
to me, those arent just normal happy memories, everybody has...but the countless memories created between me and her for the past 2 yrs is memories that can never ever leave my heart, it is craved into my brain, heart and soul...
it was a tiring day yesterday, and a full schedule day...i taught the things that im supposed to do will distract me somehow and i didnt think i wont be able to stand ground when that wave of memories hit me...after going to college, i went back to the place i had my internship to do my clearance and on the way of going there, i passed by alot of "memorable places"...and there goes, the waves just kept hitting me... and yeah...i was washed away once again....feeling pain deep down inside...the feeling is like, you couldnt hear any sounds around you anymore, everything is switched to silent mode...the pictures you see is just grey, everything around you is grey....im walking, in a place where theres full of people, but my mind wasnt thinking at all...just walking and walking forward until my friend called me...it woke me up, i tried to be as normal as i can...but deep down inside...i know, the scar is bleeding...
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