unpredictable

the day started off really well, besides feeling extremely tired but it ended quite badly...the whole day was kinda fun with all those lame craps, jokes and fooling around is really nice...on the other hand, work is piling up again...well, just have to face it and finish it as soon as i could...

today, realising how limited my abilities are compared to others just feels so bad...but somebody asked me why i always have to feel and think the negative way? me myself dont know...maybe confidence is not really my thing....

back at home...feeling good and energetic...taught i would just spend a night out alone and watch a movie since its wednesday...on my way there, i taught it would be better if i have someone to come along with me...but then, everything is planned by GOD...i couldnt find anyone to come along...so there i went, queing up for the tickets...i taught i was strong today to take this in...i taught im able to enjoy it today, alone...in the end, i realised its not quite that way...feeling embarassed walking alone and buying ONE ticket and being looked at as though im some psycho just kinda wiped off my mood...walking the closed mall alone is really not a very nice thing to do...you walked and walked and walked for that one hour reli makes me feel so dumb...and people just have to look at me in a different way...is it me thinking too much or what? i guess not...even i would look at someone whos walking alone waiting for the movie to start...

the movie started well...just like my day...two people who were created together and are meant to be in pairs for the rest of their life, it is just so sweet right...but ironically, they arent able to be together and they would be much better off if they are separated and the further apart they are, the better life it would lead to the both of them, each of them walking their own path despite the bond they had between them...how can such thing happen...yeah...its a movie...but it does happen to alot of people out there...still, as long as the other half is healthy and happy living their own life in a different path, it is a blessing to their heart as well...that is something so amazing which is known as, LOVE...