incomparable

the trip to cameron was such a boring one, if it wasnt for the strawberries and the weather, its a waste of time going there...well, this trip, reminds me of so many things, reminds me so much of her...

this trip does not at all feels the same as i would last time...there is a huge gap within my heart when i was there, i couldnt really feel the fun at all...as usual, my phone was not as busy as it was...seeing so many things to buy, happiness was washed away as soon as it came, who can i buy those things for? those things i was looking at and interested in was all the things that SHE loves, i like them because SHE likes them...in the end, i just walked away, buying nothing at all and ended up receiving blasts in my heart and i kept telling myself that it is ok, everything is over and everything will be alright but in the end, nothing seems to be right for me...each and every place i went in cameron, i had a feeling, a strange feeling, i remembered that she went there with her family last year, so, each place i went to, i was imagining, how she reacted and how happy she was when she was last in that particular place...i had such a short memory power, things i read, things i learnt, things i encountered, will not be able to stay for more than a week or so but anything related to her is like carved within me, cannot be erased...

i really do miss her alot even now, 8 months closing in, still, i couldnt say that my love for her has depleted even a bit...she is just someone irreplaceable, impossible to find someone like her ever again...now matter how my heartbreaks, i will still be here, till god knows when, missing her, thinking of her, hoping and wishing that everything goes well for her...