stillness of mind

alot of events has taken place today...and a long nice ride on the streets is just absolutely great as always...i always tell myself and others that who i am now is someone much better than who i were before this...but then, there are certain things that i really need to work on, something that is literally hard to change...people change for many reasons and in terms of temper, i need to find just the right source for that change...

the emptiness is within me, conquering me since yesterday...i think when we least expect something, it will come to it, its more like a cycle whereby if you chase profusely after it, the distance of you and the thing that you were chasing did not close in abit but if you were to expect less and be stationary, things that you werent expecting will come from your back just like a total cycle...

once again, i see something in someone today which i did not expect i would...but this time, i took control of the situation, i knew that stillness of mind is essential to keep myself out of trouble...which in the end, turns out to be much more rewarding...maybe this is life afterall...if we are able to think and act as rationally as we can all the time, our paths will be much more easier that way...tonight, the fog has cleared abit and i can see my vision ahead and what must and needs to be done...until the next storm hits, i shall just take advantage of this clear sky tonight...

i still believes that happiness will somehow find its way to me...a way or another, its just a matter of time...faith in myself is what i really need...determination and patience is also essential for everything that i hoped for to realize...well, at last, 2 steps back but at least, now, its 1 step forward...