is birth day reli THAT special?

im sure that each and everyone loves their birthday...waiting eagerly for the whole year for that particular day to come...we are always granted what we want on our birthdays as long as its a reasonable one...we get special treatments on that day from our friends and family especially...some of you all might have extended curfew or permission from your parents to do something that you arent allowed to do normally...

but there are different stories to listen to from different people...what a birthday means to a person is different to each and every one of us...

today, we did something for our friend on her birthday...of course, her best friends are all there for her...and yeah...shes happy about it...i was right there, looking at her...thinking, is this what our birthdays is all about? being as happy as you could on this special day, be with our friends and family and have a feast and celebrate it? is it that simple?

i started to look back at my own story...for 17 years...i can say that none of my birthday is THAT special...the way i look at my birthday is nothing but just a normal day with just something extra to eat...i never truly felt happy on that day,....instead i dont really want that day to come because on that particular day, it would only make me realise how dull my life was...how lonely i was...its true i have family to celebrate this day...but still...it just doesnt make me feel that day so special...and the only thing i look forward to in this day is the wish making, my wish all these while is to have a better birthday next year and having more colours in my life...and yeah...2 yrs back...i had something special on this day...i had something new, someone special to celebrate this day with me and filled me with surprises...and since then....i found out how special and happy this day can be to me...and i started to eargerly wait for the return of this day again...

but this year...its all so different...i dont want this day to come...cuz its never gonna be the same again...i think from now on...this "special" day is gonna be just like any normal days...