lightened path

first of all, i really wanna thank you for your words of wisdom, nick...thanks alot bro...i have not logged into my account for a few days in a row already but today, when i saw those words, i could just say, yes! those words lightened my path even more... its better to have disappoinments in life rather than not live it at all and without hope, there is no life...

i used the word life and live loosely in my posts, but the truth is, i can never really define or tell what life is all about and what is the right way to live our lives...i guess, no one in this world are able to have the definition to it...

my heart has lighten so much these 3 days...i truly do not know what destiny will bring next...and once again...i felt something special, my heart finally beats again...the burden behind my back has lighten so much, and i never felt so alive for months...each day right now, i felt the happiness and every laughter of mine comes right from the heart...looks like, whatever you guys has been telling me for the past 7 months is nothing but the truth, well, i really do have to apologise as my vision was fogged by so many things, so many illusions of the past, and you really have to get there to see and feel how is it like to be there, and now, i see clearer than ever before...

theres a question in my heart which im desperately searching for an answer to it...i really wonder, is the the right path, the right exit to all these or is this a game, something that needs to be repeated on me so i could understand and learn further? i really want to know...i know this is not the right time and i guess the best thing to do now is to keep the stillness of mind no matter what happens, this is the only way to protect myself...