on my way

its certainly not a very joyful day today...theres alot of friends whos gonna leave and most of them already left...gone to persue in their own path in life...its just so grey inside me the whole day...but i just couldnt really put it in words of why im feeling that way...perhaps im just missing all of them...

i realised that everyone has their own life, and me? i cannot just keep hanging on others to move on...after today, im gonna be on my own, i dont know whats gonna come next but i just know that i really need to find my own path of life, perhaps a different path from before BUT a path of my OWN...without all those words, help, encouragement, advise, time that you all had given me and spent for me...i wouldnt even be here today, i might already be six feet under...its really time, to get back to myself and be who i was...before the 14th of october, i think i will be able to find back all the pieces of me and a new beginning...

its gonna be the 6th again...and its the 4th month that this date of the month is bothering me greatly...its a day of refreshing what has happened...and yeah, its really proven that each time im moving somewhere forward, things will happen and pull me back...its not just the date....but something more...