the door

i couldnt help but feel emptier as days goes by...every single day when i opened my eyes, my heart felt so empty, basically, during this holidays, i have nothing to look forward to and when that happens, i tend to put the scene back to half a year ago, imagining how fun and how fast this holiday period will end with all those plans with her...every single thing that is bothering me is the same as half a year ago, everyday, the fear gets stronger and stronger, it is the fear of losing someone dearly to you, it has already happened but then, in my heart, she never left...

you brought me to this path,
now, your the one who left this path,
leaving me, alone, right at the spot where you left me,
without you, i couldnt find the exit to all these,
without you, everything is blurred,
without you, i couldnt even see whats ahead of me,
and there i am, just like a boat, without a navigator,
lost...
puzzled...
all these never kill me,
floating...
exactly like a boat,
in the middle of nowhere, constantly hit by waves,
it almost sink each time, but with just an inch away,
it still survived till today,
awaiting to be saved, awaiting for you...