strangely, today, i received so many unexpected calls and msges from friends nearby to friend whos hundred thousands of miles away...sadly, i do not know what happened to me...something is wrong when i tried to talk to them...i feel something missing there...it has nothing to do with them...but its me...i used to be a good persuader, someone good to talk to when troubled, but it seems that i no longer have the ability of lending an ear and a hand through words to those who seek it...i really want to know why...
i tend to feel and be care-less about myself and the life im having now...i no longer a person who stands firm on my grounds with my own perspective and my own way of doing things, all i does now is just go with the flow...follow suit with what everyone else says or do...i agree with everything others say...maybe its this change in the way i see things and the way i think now made me lose the ability to guide others anymore...because i had nothing great and im in no position to help them or to hear them out as even my own problems, im unable to solve it, all i do is just run away from it, try not to look at it if i can help it...
still, there is some good perspectives towards this change in me...not all is bad, at least, i had more friends that i ever taught i would have...but what if im able to keep all these good attributes but at the same time have my own personality like before...everday life is to revise yourself, to race and compete with yourself so as day to day, you are a better person than you were yesterday...
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