it came, i struggled through each day of it and at last it ended yesterday...the exams for term 5 is finally over, all of us are looking forward to the upcoming 2 weeks holidays where at last, all of us are able to get some rest and feel slightly relieved...
it was kinda stupid night yesterday where it was supposed to be a de-stress session but then it ended up adding more stress to me...but then, at least all of us had fun...but then, i did not truly enjoyed it as i taught i would...i dont know why...it seems that somehow in a way or another, something is missing...nothing to do with anyone or anything, but i just couldnt figure out whats missing there in between...i did all my part as a friend to all of them who came over to my house...and yeah, i do hope all of them are always happy like they seemed to be yesterday...so, at the end of it, what cheered me up was seeing them be happy...
till today, it has been 3 weeks already ever since i received any emails from her...i really wonder, i really wanna know why till today im still being treated as such, as something without any value or importance to her at all...maybe all these while the reason of me going through all these is that it was my fault to love all her wrong doings and faults...isnt that how it is supposed to be when you love someone? arent we supposed to love all the good and bad attributes of a person we truly love? is the only way out to all these and the only way to find all the answers to my questions is to seek it in a new relationship? im doubting it as we never know until we get there...
i shall let go on what has built between us...cuz i know all these while that its only one hand trying to clap...but no matter what, i still wish to see the both of you being able to clap joyfully...cheers to all my friends, thanks for being there for me...anything for you all...
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